Rough Magic: Living with Borderline Personality Disorder - Paperback

by Miranda Newman (Author)

NATIONAL BESTSELLER. A harrowing but ultimately uplifting memoir about living with borderline personality disorder--the most stigmatized diagnosis in mental health.

"I didn't know whether to take you to a psychologist or an exorcist."

This is how Miranda Newman's mother described the experience of trying to find an explanation for her daughter's behaviour. It would be years before Miranda was able to find a diagnosis that explained the complicated way she moved through the world. She would have to advocate for herself in the mental health system while dealing with abuse, being unhoused, survival sex, suicide attempts and hospitalizations.

Through it all, Miranda has found strength in her diagnosis. Her recollections are visceral and confessional, but also self-aware, irreverent and funny. She tells readers how she has found strength and joy in what others might see as tragic, while bolstering her personal recollections with deeply researched observations on Canada's mental healthcare system, and the history of diagnostics and disorder, using research supported by her work at Yale University.

Author Biography

MIRANDA NEWMAN is a writer and editor based in Toronto. She lives with BPD, post-traumatic stress disorder, major depressive disorder, and generalized anxiety disorder. Her lived experience informs her writing on topics related to mental health and trauma.
Her work has appeared in The Walrus, Literary Review of Canada, Broadview, Xtra, Montreal Gazette, and elsewhere. Her feature, "Kids in Crisis," received an Honourable Mention from the National Magazine Awards. She also publishes Life as a Lunatic, a newsletter about coping with symptoms related to trauma and mental illness. In 2022, Miranda was a Fellow at Yale University's program for recovery and community health.